Sep. 2nd, 2004
wah... here I go again (changes)  
I've made a very important decision tonight—at least an important one to me.

I both love and hate politics. This entry isn't honestly as much about Bush as it is myself. But of course, we're going to take the long way there. Normally, I love it because I take this attitude that politics is largely a game. Republicans and Democrats all play similar ones, and life moves on. I find it amusing to see how ppl get so worked up over little littlest shit.

Not this time. I'm not enjoying this election.

I can't seem to take that step back, and now I'm the one getting worked up, and that annoys me. In 2000, I voted for McCain and then Gore, but when Bush won, my attitude was largely, "meh. It's not the end of the world." I thought everyone was just being ridiculous with their apocolyptic predictions. I rolled my eyes. Back then, I thought people voting for Bush were wrong, but, hey, they had their opinions, and I had mine. This year, I can hardly look a Bush supporter in the eye or see a bumper sticker on a car without wanting to bash their windshield. My mom told me she was voting for that SOB today, and it was all I could do to contain my embarrassment, disappointment, and anger at her decision.

In nearly anything else, any other election, how someone votes wouldn't really matter, but I'm taking this election personally. Someone voting for Bush is voting against me and against my rights. Don't think so? It's pretty clear if you poke around. I was reading a number of posts on LJ last night from Bush supporters who in one breath pledged their allegiance to W, and in the other talked about how they were sick of "faggots" shoving this and that down their throats. "Activist judges," they cried (as if judges should be anything else but). I didn't save the links, but trust me, you don't have to look hard. They may not all be bigots, but the bigots have certainly found a friend and a home in the GOP.

Then there's the destruction W's done to our country's name. We're no longer respected by just about everyone now. The country is certainly going in the wrong direction. W is stamping out porn and forcing the born again Christian view of morality down everyone's throat.

Blah Blah But, anyway...

As I watch the news, and I read stories of New Yorkers harrassing delegates all over the city and making them feel as unwelcome as they possibly can, I actually empathize with them. I'm not a New Yorker, but I know how I'd feel, and I wish I could be in the streets with them right now. When I see images of protestors being arrested, or making their way onto the floor of the convention to get their message out, I'm all stoked, and I see heroes. And that's so unlike me.

I can't even watch 10 minutes of the convention without yelling at the TV ready to throw something at these Victorian-esque neanderthals. These aren't progressive, intelligent human beings. These are brainwashed religious zealots living in the dark ages of "Leave It to Beaver."

And I've ignored it as long as I can.

I know to a lot of people, party affiliation doesn't mean a whole lot, and my choices are largely irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. But to me, it says something about me. At its simplest, I believe that government should be as small as it can be to get the job done, protect people's rights, and regulate business. I think the more government does, the more control it gives them over us. At the same time, I'm not such a heartless prick as to think poorer families should go without basic health care because they don't have as good a job as I might have. And although so many Democrats annoy me, I can at least watch their convention and disagree with them without feeling the need to throw something or look down on them. I just see people with different opinions, but at least they're not trying to amend the constitution to oppress people.

So as I sit here, looking at pictures of these pasty white, backwards ass, unapologetic, country bumpkins, I realize that this party does not represent me, and it's time I move on and stop trying to convince myself otherwise. At some level, I know that this is exactly what they want (not me personally—I'm not that arrogant—but in general). The born again fundamentalists want classical conservatives out of the party so they can further their stranglehold on it. And as all the sane people leave, the inmates will be the only ones left running the asylum, but you know what? The Phyllis Shlaflys already do, and they're not going anywhere. And in the end, I need to be able to look at myself in the mirror and be proud of who and what I am.

I don't know whether I will pick "refuse to state," "independent," or Democrat. But as of today, I'm no longer a Republican. The people on that stage tonight do not represent me. I laugh at them. I see them as either hateful and/or brain washed idiots. For better or for worse, we are a two party system, and I would like to have some say so in the primaries, so I feel as if I need to pick one or the other.

I know that there are some who will say: How can you support the Democrats? Don't you know what you'll end up paying in taxes? Well, who knows. But let's say even if they are right, and with the Democrats I end up paying a couple more percentage points a year in taxes. With the Republicans, I lose the right to marry the person I will hopefully one day fall in love with. With the Republicans, with every judge appointment, I lose a little more of my freedom, as they try to rob me of my dignity a little more.

And you know what? That's worth so much more to me than even a couple thousand of theoretical dollars I might one day pay a year in taxes. And if anyone is going to rob me of my dignity, it will be me with the help of a man named Jose Quervo.

So while I'm being all melodramatic, to President Bush and the Republican Party, I'd like to say a great big FUCK YOU from me. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a change of party form to download. and that's enough of this political shit for a while.</republican>
Mood: pensive
Listening to: Thursday - Where the Circle Ends
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Josephchemology on September 2nd, 2004 - 11:44 pm
::applause:: Congratulations!
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The People's Exhibit A: milkshakedavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 12:21 am
thanks ;O)
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josh: votesoundofthemoon on September 3rd, 2004 - 12:17 am
Good for you, babe. I know changing parties can be a big deal. For many Americans, party affiliation is more personal than religion. And also for many it's just as hard to think about rationally. I'm glad you were able to make that choice. I used to be a Green, but I switched to Democrat after Nader fucked us over in 2000.

You'll be glad to know that my dyke sister who lives in NY flipped off Bush's motorcade this week. And my friend from NYC who just got in today said that the Bush twins were loudly booed everythere they went in public. They so deserve it.
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 12:20 am
oh i love stories like that. I so wish I could be there.
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 12:18 am
geeeeeeeez... i really need to find a better outlet for my sexual frustration.
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eviltickles on September 3rd, 2004 - 01:01 am
um... number 1:

number 2: when/why were a republican!?!?!?

number 3: i am was a political science major. i came to both enjoy this regret my decision to study it because while i learned about all of the parties and processes involved, i also learned about all of the bullshit that goes on. so in essence, while i was no longer naive about our system, i also became jaded. for this reason, i tend to keep my mouth shut when politics comes into the conversation, because i am certain that i know more about these things that go on than the average person, but since it's politics, everyone else tends to think that they know more than the next person. and like religion, they are "always right." that being said, i have found reading your political dissertations to be rather enjoyable. maybe it's because i agree with your point of view or maybe it's because i enjoy the passion you display (i <3 the icon btw), but in the end, i say Kudos to you for being entertaining AND political.

oh, and try to talk your mom out of voting GOP. or keep her from voting period.
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(no subject) - davidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 01:44 am
(no subject) - eviltickles on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:12 am
(no subject) - davidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:31 am
(no subject) - eviltickles on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:32 am
(no subject) - davidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:35 am
(no subject) - eviltickles on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:43 am
Dave: Dudedavidluc on September 3rd, 2004 - 02:20 am
Hey man I am right there with you on the disdain for Bush. I watched his speech tonight at the RNC curious to hear his plans for America's future. The truth is, he has no plan and if he is reelected this country has no future.

I was hoping to hear some sort of guidelines to help get our economy boosted and create more jobs. That way when I graduate from college next year I won't have 100 other freshly graduated college students vying for the same position because the market is so competitive. Bush told me nothing. Maybe he could render some justification on why thousands of our soldiers are dying in a war that to most people, does not make sense. He offered no answers.

I hope for the sake of progress and common sense, that Bush will get his ass handed to him and booted out of the office.
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The People's Exhibit A: state of affairsdavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:34 pm
Sadly, I think he'll win. But maybe, just maybe the American voter won't disappoint us. Unfortunately for now, they seem to be buying right into his spin doctoring.
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bluepose on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:26 am
Wow. Congratulations. What you did was intelligent, as compared to those who allow themselves to remain brainwashed so they can identify with something in their lives.

Welcome to Independence :)
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:32 pm
I'd like to thank the Academy....
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Gantriochgantrioch on September 3rd, 2004 - 07:44 am
Just tell yourself that the extra couple of thousand is going to education or something equally worthwhile.
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 11:03 am
I like penguins.
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Zachvczachs on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:08 am
It took me time...
After the attack in 2001, I was one of the people saying "Absolutely. Take away any individual rights and freedoms as long as the collective (meaning the majority in power) was made to FEEL safer." Over the past three years while at school in LA, I have learned a great deal about the pervasive, often degrading manner, in which "security" and "freedom" have come to be "protected." Coming from a highly conservative, but not religous family, I hold similar values (small government, support business, protect individual freedoms) and find myself in a similar spot this election. It is hard to reconcile my own feelings. It is hard to keep faith when a person is bent on the systematic collapse of personal freedoms under the umbrella of "collective protection." We are all to be respected because we are the "collective" public policy was supposed to protect. Cliche I know, but if the individual does not fight for themselves, it appears less and less likely Big Brother will... =(.

I do not profess to understand all aspects of any situtation, especially the war on terror, I have a hard time accepting/understanding the propoganda and arguments from both sides. I have wanted so hard for so long to believe in the greatness of the American political system. While I still believe that it is one of the best platforms for politics in the world, the fact that I can have this sort of interaction is a testament to that, I believe that resentment has stirred not only from our freedom but a general arrogance many of my international friends have explained they feel from our nation. As someone who studies globalization intensively, I have looked at work on the USA as both nation-builder/democratic icon and USA the "bully".

Sadly, I fear my own ignorance has left me with more questions and doubts than answers or resolution. I think that people do the best they can with what they have and build great lives, sometimes from greatness and sometimes from ashes. Just be the best, as we know you are, that you can be and give it (life) "the greatest go you have."

Have a great day!!
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:32 pm
Re: It took me time...
I think both sides are filled with propaganda. It's just one side seems prefectly all right leveraging hate in order to win an election. But as some believe, all's fair in war and politics.
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(no subject) - vczachs on September 3rd, 2004 - 07:47 pm
machmed on September 3rd, 2004 - 09:24 am
I COMPLETELY agree with everything in this entry.
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:29 pm
Thanks. Now we just have to convince the rest!
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beachboyty: parkbeachboyty on September 3rd, 2004 - 01:34 pm

In all seriousness, I could not have written my own thoughts in this process more accurately than you have done here. It is so eerie to read someone else's words and see them match my own sentiments, experiences and reflections on this matter...right down to having also voted McCain then Gore in 2000, but thinking Bush wouldn't be so bad when he won.

I am not, yet, ready to leave the Republican Party. But I confess I make the argument to do so to myself at least once a week (once a day since the election started heating up). I am staying not for some strange heritage reason, ala Zell Miller and his commitment to remaining a Democrat. It's just that I can't stomach those "pasty white, backwards ass, unapologetic, country bumpkins" succeeding in getting a whole major party (that happens to control all branches of federal government at the moment) all to themselves. But I confess, I am beginning to question whether I have the wherewithall of conviction, perseverence and commitment to keep trying to be one of the faithful who won't give up the fight.

I haven't quite reached your decision yet, but as I said, you could not have a greater kinsman in your current perspective than I. It's not the most important subject in life, but its worth reflecting seriously on. So thanks for sharing your process so vividly.

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The People's Exhibit A: state of affairsdavidology on September 3rd, 2004 - 06:28 pm
The worst are filled with passionate intensity
I dunno. I was just sitting there realizing how much these people disgusted me and wondered what I was doing. How can I say I belong to them when I disagree with every word that comes out their mouths? I think I'm holding on to what the party once was, not what it is.

They've become heartless, religious-fueled bigots more concerned about their religious social engineering, and I think we saw all too clearly the effects of religious extremism on 9/11. Their days were numbered, but W saved them. They've found their new führer and new life. I'm willing to concede and let them have what's left. In the end, the center will not hold, and I know time is on our side. Society progresses and evolves despite those who would fight it. The more control they get, the more rabid they will surely become, and the more difficult it will be for good people to justify staying. Eventually, they'll turn on each other; Americans will eventually come around, and they'll eventually be a marginal party of born again misfits.

And I'll say Good Riddance.
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E&Jasondnb_blues on September 4th, 2004 - 03:08 am
so ... DONT vote for bush . sorry . new to this entire voting thing . just turned 18 and all .
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 9th, 2004 - 12:22 am
trust me, that was never an option.
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Dustinclewell99 on September 4th, 2004 - 11:18 am
I couldn't put it better myself. Back in 2000, I without a doubt would have voted McCain over Gore had I the opportunity, so I follow your train of thought because I went through the same one myself.

P.S. - I want to visit really bad!
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The People's Exhibit Adavidology on September 9th, 2004 - 12:21 am
I want you to visit really badly too... damnit!
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(no subject) - clewell99 on September 9th, 2004 - 06:47 am
(no subject) - davidology on September 9th, 2004 - 08:50 pm
(no subject) - clewell99 on September 9th, 2004 - 10:15 pm