Feb. 27th, 2004
There's just too much that time cannot erase  
Jebus.. the playlist I'm listening to tonight!
Beautiful Mistake - The Ataris
Happy Birthday to Me - Bright Eyes
Stay (I Missed You) - Lisa Loeb & Nine Stories
Did You Ever Love Somebody - Jessica Simpson
Playing My Game - Lene Marlin
Two Beds and a Coffee Machine - Savage Garden
I Won't Ever Be Happy Again - Bright Eyes
Nobody Knows - Tony Rich Project
Letting Go - Sozzi
The Power of Goodbye - Madonna
This Used to Be My Playground - Madonna
My Immortal - Evanescence
"Stay" has particular meaning to me, for silly reasons. Jason (you know, first real love, all that nonsense) and I used to tell each other "I miss you" back in the day. It was sort of our way of saying "I love you." It only has meaning because the song has several points in it where it goes, "I missed you." Funny, now when he does write me, those random times he may come across my profile, he just talks of getting together, hints at sex (which we never had). There was a time I'd have jumped at the chance — any chance — to have contact with him. Now I pretend he never said it. How could he possibly think I could just be tricks with him, even after all this time, if that's what he wants.

I still vividly remember that call I made, well over a year had passed after we had our falling out. I told you, "I still miss you, you know." You just replied, "Okay." That was it. Now, you tell me you never had a connection like we had with anyone ever again. I don't know what you expect or what you want from me. Or why I even randomly think about it. *emo tear*

Oh wah.. Ok, I'm starting to annoy even myself. Jebus... Time to hit stop and end this playlist before I desperately try to drown myself in the shower with my Shower Massager® by Water Pik.

Squish squish.. ok i'm done. Yea, I missed you. asshole. NOW I'm done. asshole
 
 
Mood: drunk
Listening to: Evanescence - My Immortal
 
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